School

So i have totally not blogged in forever because i was so busy on break and now i am swamped with school work. I really feel like i am going to rip my hair out this week. I have so much to study for with all these quizzes and tests coming up and it is just so stressful. Not counting all the homework i have as well. Like i really just can't wait until christmas break comes. All my finals will be done, and i won't have to worry about anything. It will be just such a weight lifted off my shoulders.
Also on top of everything else, the weather sucks. I mean it is REALLY cold outside. I hate the cold, and yeah i know its winter, but when your already stressed out and its cold outside, it does not help matters at all. Well i am going to go and try to finish at least some of the schoolwork i have to do.

Stress

Stress is like the worst thing ever. It messes up your body so much. I unfortunately inherited a panic disorder from my mother so i get panic attacks when i am stressed, and believe me they are not fun. It basically feels like your going to die, and it scares the crap out of you. Anyway i have had to up my medication because they got a little worse, but thankfully they are beginning to get under control again. They started up because of stupid finals. They are getting so close and everything is starting to be due for all different classes and basically everyone just feels like ripping their hair out. It's just blah. But thankfully thanksgiving break is almost here so that gives us a little time to relax, but as soon as we get back it is the final two weeks of classes for the semester. That is going to be so hectic and stressful i don't even want to think about it. Anywho, enough blogging, i must go finish the rest of my homework so i can go to sleep at a decent time as i have to get up at six in the morning to get to school by my eight o clock class.

Break

I am very excited that Thanksgiving break is almost here!! i am so stressed out right now because of everything i have to do in school and i just need a break. It will be so nice to just be able to relax and not have to worry about anything to do with school. I am very nervous about finals that are coming up though. My finals in high school basically only covered material from our midterm on, and this is going to be everything. I am embarassed to say that i have never taken a final like that before. But i am going to study hard and try my best. That is the only thing that i can ask of myself and also expect of myself. But for now i'm just hoping that the next week and a half goes by very fast so break can be here!!

UGHHH

SO today was just like a completely bad day. I was almost late for a meeting with my advisor because of traffic. I finally thought i was out of traffic and then guess what. This big huge truck that has something that looks like a huge ball labeled 65,000 lbs on it is in front of me. and it has flag cars in front and behind it and they are going like ten miles an hour. I was mad. So then i get to school and no parking spots. wonderful. I had to park all the way at the end of the main parking lot and then run to feldman with tons of books slowing me down. then english. that wasn't bad, we taught each other, and math, well thats just boring. So i'm starting to think okay maybe just a bad morning you know, all done. I was so wrong. Chemistry comes along and i get a 67 on my test. Luckily he curves the grades so he doesn't fail like half the class so it was actually a borderline C+ B-, but that's not the point. I want to do well without the curve, like get a good grade to begin with. Don't get me wrong i love the curve as it is helping me pass, but still. And i talked to my prof. and told him how i was struggling and it's not like i don't try. I study like mad, i read the text, i do the homework, but chemistry is just not my thing. He said he understood and to just keep trying. A lot of people are not good at it, i just have to pass and keep trying to do well. So i was sad. Then traffic all the way home and i am just very stressed. So i am going to finish homework and just go to bed. I shall blog at some point.

CHEMISTRY!!

I totally hate chemistry!!! We had a test today, and it seemed like everything that we learned was NOT on the test. I was so mad! I studied like crazy and the test just completely threw me. I probably failed. I try and try to understand chem but i can't. It's just like a foreign language to me that no matter how much i go over it and study i can't decipher. I just hope i don't completely fail the course.

Friday

So today is finally friday, but i can't comment on anyone's blogs because all the people who are on blogger that i can actually comment on, haven't put up any new blogs. So i don't really know how we are going to be graded on this because it isn't our fault that people aren't blogging and therefore we can't comment. But anyway, yesterday i skipped school to go with my mom to her doctor's appointment. You all know what happened, and we found out that she has to be in a sling for three to four weeks and get mri's done on her shoulder and knee to see if there is anything else going on. So yeah, not good, but at least they are prety sure that she doesn't need surgery.

No idea

So i really have no idea what to write about anymore. I'm clueless. So now i'm just writing about random things again. Uh i have a biology test on friday, a bio lab quiz tomorrow, which will probably be really hard, and oh i just got back from the emergency room. We had to take my mom to the hospital because my 130 pound rottie puppy was all excited and running around the house. He then ran into my mom by accident and she fell really hard, hit her knee, her head and landed on her right shoulder. She couldn't move it at all and she has an A-C seperation. That is where two bones in your shoulder seperate. And if the swelling doesn't go down, then there is something wrong with her rotater cuff, and she will need shoulder surgery. So now she has a sling on her arm and has to go back to the doctors in two days. Things just come right after another in life. Oh well.

GO PHILLIES!!!

So today is amazing and not just today just this week. The Phillies are National League Champions for the second year in a row and we are heading to the world series!!! I can't wait. I love sports, especially baseball and the Phillies, and these are special times. For so long the phillies basically sucked, but now we have emerged as the best team in baseball! We are going to beat the yankees have faith and we shall be World Champions for the second year running!

On another note, I got an A on my math test i took today, yay! But, i got a C on my english midterm, which in my opinion in a way i think it isn't fair because i wasn't there that day, and i was told the wrong assignment by accident, so i wrote three different messages that three events showed, instead of one. But can't make it up and thankfully it's only 5% of my grade, so it shouldn't affect me too too much.

again........

here i am blogging again. and i still have nothing to say, because everything i could say is personal and i really don't feel like having it out on the internet. That would just be really embarrassing, so i shall avoid that. Anyway, nothing much really going on, just going to school everyday and doing homework everyday. Oh wait, well i did find out that i have to get my wisdom teeth taken out during christmas break and it just so happens my mom scheduled my surgery to be two days before christmas. Lucky me. That is going to be so much fun, looking like a chipmunk on christmas. So i think that is everything for now, so i am going to go try to schedule my classes for next semester.

weekend

So it's finally the weekend, and i have to blog again. And once again i have nothing to say because i don't like blogs. Soo....um i did some of my homework, and my genetics lab is taking forever. It is already eight pages long, and it sucks. I can barely work on it because my attention keeps wandering and i still don't feel good. I have been on medicing for a couple of days now, and it has only helped a very little bit. Its so stupid. I keep waking up in the middle of the night sneezing and nose running and not being able to breathe. So i'm like dead tired. And now i have to go comment on people's blogs and i'll finally be done with this. Well until next week.

sick

So this week totally blows. I have freaking strep throat and possible mono. Great! I feel like crap and today is the second day of school i have missed, and the best part is i can't even really sleep all day like i want to because i have to do homework! it sucks so bad. My head is pounding so bad it feels like it is going to explode. The doctor said i would start feeling better after 48 hours on my antibiotic but nothing yet. And aside from doing homework and sleeping i have found that there is absolutely nothing on tv during the day! Talk about total boredom. I did try to get out of bed to come to school today because i have a lab, i really did, but when i stood up my pounding head just got worse and i felt as though i was going to pass out. So my mom basically ordered me to go back to sleep and email my lab teacher. So that is what i am going to do now that i am done rambling about basically nothing for this blog.

venting

This blog is basically me venting about things:
So i totally forgot to write in this blog last week because i had a lot of actually important things on my mind. Like all these tests i had to study for. I had like three of them in the span of a week. Not to mention all this homework that just keeps piling up on me. I am more worried about like studying my notes and doing homework, then writing a paragraph that everyone can read. I guess good news is that i finally found everyone who has blogs i can actually comment on so now i can start doing that. But downside, i hate blogging. I really wish we would read some short stories or like shakespeare or dante's inferno or something like that. I love reading and discussing what the author's meaning is and stuff, not just critiquing essays. But oh well, got take what you get and make the best of it. But now again i have other things to do, like math homework so i guess i will make something else up to talk about later.

Blogging is so pointless!!

Blogging is completely pointless and i have absolutely no time or interest in doing it. If i haven't had a blog before college, why would i want one now? I do not like telling people everything that goes on in my life, and kids say my blog is boring? I could care less, i am only doing it because its a grade for english which is stupid, and i'm not really interested in trying to get people to read my blog. What happens in my life is supposed to be just that: my life! People on the internet don't need to know my name, where i live or anything, i feel like doing this is just enabling people to find me if they really wanted to. I have more important things to do than sit here and blog. I have actual college work. Like chem and math and bio. And two tests this week i need to study for. And as for commenting five people a week? You can't even do that for your english grade because i'm on blogger and no one on live journal has even changed their settings so you can comment. So what is the point of this whole assignment????

Thank god

Well my niece Leah went to the specialist and they say that she doesn't need surgery! She is have the pyloric spasms because she has like baby acid reflux. Now she has to take medicine every day and it should go away between the ages of six months and two years old. So now all we have to do is feed her more often and less formula each feeding so it has time to go down. My sister also got like a whole page of tips that she has to do. But at least my niece is okay

Why is life so cruel?

So yesterday i come home to find out that nobody told me that my 4 week old niece was rushed to the hospital early that morning. Apparently they didn't want me freaking out and getting into an accident or skipping school. They didn't keep her which is good i guess, but she has been projectile vomiting and just screaming in pain. She had an ultrasound done, i found out when i got home. I immediately stopped doing all homework and went to my sister's house. Leah was fuzzy but she finally fell asleep on me as i watched her for my sister while she talked to the doctor and our mom. The doctor said Leah's ultrasound was abnormal and she was having pyloric spams. For those of you who don't know what the pyloric is, its a sphinctor at the bottom of your stomach that opens and lets the partially digested food go into the intestines to be digested further. Well Leah's is spazing and barely lets any food through, hence the vomiting and obviously its causing her a lot of pain. She has to see a specialist this friday and they think, THINK that they can treat this with medicine. If not, she will need surgery. SURGERY! and she is only a month old!!! It's not fair, and its horrible to see my sister cry and Leah in so much pain.

Homework...Homework...Homework

I am extremely glad that i love coffee. College certainly is not what it is all cracked up to be. I have so much homework it is not even funny. Study every day, essay here, lab report here, oh here do these like a thousand problems for chemistry and i'm going to make it so you can only do a certain amount cuz we haven't talked about the rest yet and then i'll make them due two days after that! wonderful! And i don't even get that much time to do it as kids who live on campus because i have to drive an hour to get home! Yes an hour and on certain days i run into rush hour traffic which makes it about an hour and a half! It totally sucks so i'm up super late every night and then up bright and early the next morning. and weekends? ha what is a weekend. Mine is working every day eight hours a day and then homework. i have such a great life. If it wasn't for my boyfriend living with me i don't think i would see him at all. Which he is so great because tomorrow he is taking me to a movie and dinner with some friends because i need a break from constant school and work. We are going to see the movie Nine which according to Casey (boyfriend) is about humans being extinct and then little robots bringing them back. i don't understand how this works, but i suppose i will when i see the movie. Then after that i believe we are going to Max and Erma's. I love that restaurant. They have great food and plus you can order delicious chocolate chip cookies to be brought out to you when you done eating. Right out of the oven! YUM! That's my favorite part lol. So anyway, better get back to my mound of homework that seems to every so slowly pile up more and more to the point that i feel i will never get it all done.

Weekend...Sports...and chinese food

So first off, it's eight thirty on a monday night and i'm sitting at my desk eating chinese food. Sweet and sour chicken and pork fried rice to be specific. And its really good. I don't know about you guys but i absolutely love chinese food. The only thing that sucks is it doesn't fill you up for very long and you have to keep eating more, which is why i don't understand how the chinese people stay so freaking skinny! oh well. Anyway, my weekend was good and bad. It sucked cuz i had to work both days as usual and wawa sucks, BUT it rocked because the Eagles monopolized their game, and the Phillies won both games of their double header. Amaaaazzzinnng! And my boyfriend and I's one year anniversary was on Saturday so that make the weekend fantastic as well. But today it was back to school. :( At least i only had one class today, but alas, three tomorrow. Blah.

End of week finally

I am feeling as though I am free as a bird right now and that is because it's finally the weekend! School this week of course sucked. I mean its school, right? I did make some new friends though which is cool and actually a breakthrough for me since i am really shy. But unfortunately as the weeks go on, the classes get harder and more and more material is shoved into my brain making it feels as though i am a sponge that has soaked up all the water i can but someone is still surrounding me with more. Oh well, i guess you learn to deal. And along with school, for me at least comes the driving back and forth, which in turn makes me uber tired. Yes uber. And driving today totally sucked as it is pouring down rain and my windshield wipers are HORRIBLE! They do not wash away water oh no, they smear. So try driving an hour with water smearing on your windshield. Not fun. at. all. Oh yeah and its freezing outside. That's a plus. not. Oh why did summer have to end. But i must be happy as it is finally the weekend and even though i have to work eight hours each day, there is still no school.

First week rollercoaster ride

Have you ever had the feeling that you are on a neverending rollercoaster ride full of twists and turns and loops? You feel like you will never get off? Well that's how i felt coming to college. Trying to figure out when to leave for school so i wouldn't be late, trying to find classes. Yeah feels like im a minnow in a lake full of huge sharks. Well anyway, after you find all the classes its a matter of knowing people. I'm not like the kids who have been at college for weeks before classes started and got to know each other. Its like im imposing on their community and their already made friends, but all i can try to do is try to slide into their groups and become accepted. Then there is the fact of the class lectures. So much material thrown at me at once and i feel like im struggling to keep my head above water. It's so much different than high school and will take a while to get used to.