School

So i have totally not blogged in forever because i was so busy on break and now i am swamped with school work. I really feel like i am going to rip my hair out this week. I have so much to study for with all these quizzes and tests coming up and it is just so stressful. Not counting all the homework i have as well. Like i really just can't wait until christmas break comes. All my finals will be done, and i won't have to worry about anything. It will be just such a weight lifted off my shoulders.
Also on top of everything else, the weather sucks. I mean it is REALLY cold outside. I hate the cold, and yeah i know its winter, but when your already stressed out and its cold outside, it does not help matters at all. Well i am going to go and try to finish at least some of the schoolwork i have to do.

Stress

Stress is like the worst thing ever. It messes up your body so much. I unfortunately inherited a panic disorder from my mother so i get panic attacks when i am stressed, and believe me they are not fun. It basically feels like your going to die, and it scares the crap out of you. Anyway i have had to up my medication because they got a little worse, but thankfully they are beginning to get under control again. They started up because of stupid finals. They are getting so close and everything is starting to be due for all different classes and basically everyone just feels like ripping their hair out. It's just blah. But thankfully thanksgiving break is almost here so that gives us a little time to relax, but as soon as we get back it is the final two weeks of classes for the semester. That is going to be so hectic and stressful i don't even want to think about it. Anywho, enough blogging, i must go finish the rest of my homework so i can go to sleep at a decent time as i have to get up at six in the morning to get to school by my eight o clock class.

Break

I am very excited that Thanksgiving break is almost here!! i am so stressed out right now because of everything i have to do in school and i just need a break. It will be so nice to just be able to relax and not have to worry about anything to do with school. I am very nervous about finals that are coming up though. My finals in high school basically only covered material from our midterm on, and this is going to be everything. I am embarassed to say that i have never taken a final like that before. But i am going to study hard and try my best. That is the only thing that i can ask of myself and also expect of myself. But for now i'm just hoping that the next week and a half goes by very fast so break can be here!!

UGHHH

SO today was just like a completely bad day. I was almost late for a meeting with my advisor because of traffic. I finally thought i was out of traffic and then guess what. This big huge truck that has something that looks like a huge ball labeled 65,000 lbs on it is in front of me. and it has flag cars in front and behind it and they are going like ten miles an hour. I was mad. So then i get to school and no parking spots. wonderful. I had to park all the way at the end of the main parking lot and then run to feldman with tons of books slowing me down. then english. that wasn't bad, we taught each other, and math, well thats just boring. So i'm starting to think okay maybe just a bad morning you know, all done. I was so wrong. Chemistry comes along and i get a 67 on my test. Luckily he curves the grades so he doesn't fail like half the class so it was actually a borderline C+ B-, but that's not the point. I want to do well without the curve, like get a good grade to begin with. Don't get me wrong i love the curve as it is helping me pass, but still. And i talked to my prof. and told him how i was struggling and it's not like i don't try. I study like mad, i read the text, i do the homework, but chemistry is just not my thing. He said he understood and to just keep trying. A lot of people are not good at it, i just have to pass and keep trying to do well. So i was sad. Then traffic all the way home and i am just very stressed. So i am going to finish homework and just go to bed. I shall blog at some point.

CHEMISTRY!!

I totally hate chemistry!!! We had a test today, and it seemed like everything that we learned was NOT on the test. I was so mad! I studied like crazy and the test just completely threw me. I probably failed. I try and try to understand chem but i can't. It's just like a foreign language to me that no matter how much i go over it and study i can't decipher. I just hope i don't completely fail the course.

Friday

So today is finally friday, but i can't comment on anyone's blogs because all the people who are on blogger that i can actually comment on, haven't put up any new blogs. So i don't really know how we are going to be graded on this because it isn't our fault that people aren't blogging and therefore we can't comment. But anyway, yesterday i skipped school to go with my mom to her doctor's appointment. You all know what happened, and we found out that she has to be in a sling for three to four weeks and get mri's done on her shoulder and knee to see if there is anything else going on. So yeah, not good, but at least they are prety sure that she doesn't need surgery.

No idea

So i really have no idea what to write about anymore. I'm clueless. So now i'm just writing about random things again. Uh i have a biology test on friday, a bio lab quiz tomorrow, which will probably be really hard, and oh i just got back from the emergency room. We had to take my mom to the hospital because my 130 pound rottie puppy was all excited and running around the house. He then ran into my mom by accident and she fell really hard, hit her knee, her head and landed on her right shoulder. She couldn't move it at all and she has an A-C seperation. That is where two bones in your shoulder seperate. And if the swelling doesn't go down, then there is something wrong with her rotater cuff, and she will need shoulder surgery. So now she has a sling on her arm and has to go back to the doctors in two days. Things just come right after another in life. Oh well.